What it is? (Freestyle)

Do u know...what it is? Is it that first look, a smile, a kind word or gesture,,,is it a soothing hug, gentle touch or passionate kiss? Is it a small gift that sends u into sheer bliss? Is it the trials or tribulations the hit or the miss? Is the time and effort put in to get passed all this? Is it loyalty, honesty, trust or dedication? Is it the date nights, kickbacks or family celebrations? It may be none, it may be one or more, hold on tight to the feeling that keeps you coming back for more.....

Flight of the Ostrich

beautiful bird, God crafted for flight? no, u gave me wings but don't want me to fly....why? forgive me for trying, for dreaming of flying....forgive me for using my wings. i know I'll never fly but i cant help but try...flightless bird, woe is me

Your Truths

Yeah I tell lies, show me one human who doesn't

You looked at me and said it was true but I knew it wasn't

You called me names and made me feel like shit

You said you don't lie but you do and I'm sick and tired of it

But I don't bother saying anything because it will all fall back on me

Because I got the information somewhere I wasn't supposed to be

So yeah I lie, I admit, No I'm not perfect at all

My lack of truth telling and your discernment are our final downfall

1672 Days

I knew I was in love from day 1, so I can honestly say that I have loved you for 1672 days.

I was never afraid to try anything with you, we've probably fucked more than 1672 ways.

We had 1672 opportunities to show each other how we felt and we didn't take those opportunities to be our best. We've been tried and tried and tried again and each time I thought we passed the test.

But 1672 days later its over, you dump me and leave me with a broken heart. I gave you 1672 days of devotion, the happiest 1672 days of my life. I'm not the best or the hottest but I gave you everything I got and I when I didn't have anything left I pressed on. But still it ain't enough because of everything else that I'm not. 

I don't have a lot of common sense

I'm not quick witted

I don't always think before I speak

I'm not a negotiator

I don't think quick on my toes

I react in unpleasant ways

I'm jealous

I'm extremely emotional

I give up quickly sometimes

I don't let you forget

I've called the cops

I hold grudges

I keep secrets 

I tell lies

I'm selfish

Well yeah, it looks like I'm perfect...perfectly human and perfectly flawed. My flaws don't make me and won't break me but I guess they did break us. I stuck it out through so much shit, all the times we would fight and fuss. All the girls and indiscretions, through all the mistakes I've learned some lessons.

No, I'm not perfect. I cook, I clean, I shop, I work, I bathe kids, I support your habits and your hustles, I invest in your talents, I wash dirty clothes, I fold clean clothes, I fuck, I suck, I lick, I caress, I massage, I make soup, I hand out medicine, I try new things, I never turn you away, I give it when you ask and when you don't, I got a big ass, I got thick thighs, I have a pretty face, I'm a great mother, I laugh at your jokes, I put up with your shit for years, I patch up holes, I didn't make you leave, I love and I love and I love, I have faith, I believe, I forgive....I digress... I'm not perfect, but I bet you will never have another 1672 days like this again.

I love you forever David, Flaws and All!

Roar!!!!!!

Nothin poetic about this feeling today, I got aches and pains so hard and deep, I'm praying to God they go away. I got mental scars, memories of painful admissions.....

I've been dumped, shitted on, fucked and buried and all over again and again. I been cheated on and dismissed and went through it again.

I'm not claiming innocent and I'm not tryna play the victim I'm playing the human, the hurt one, the confused one....The one with marks that go deeper than skin

I'm in love, in love with what I built with him, in love with where we been. There's things that gotta change and I dont know where to start. I've tried my way and all thats done is hurt your heart.....

Nope aint nothin rhythmic about the state of affairs, note melodic sounds, or moving in sync...we're on separate sides of the world with our toothbrushes on the same sink.

Aint shit easy, either change or be done with it once and for all, and when things fall they fall and fall and fall.....hard

Nothing poetic about me today

I'm A Classic

I'm a classic model, not the new slim and sleek edition

I'm one of a kind, ever so rare, limited edition

I got mad skills in the bedroom and the kitchen

You can try to find one like me, but the amenities you will be missin'

My equipment is all stock,fuck your 22's this ass sits on a 45

The good ole curvy model, not the boxy look all square-assed in the back

You wanna trade me in for a "better-lookin" one but I bet you'll wanna buy me right back

I'm a classic woman, lady in the streets and a supa-freak in the sheets

I cook home-made meals, close business deals and my lips tase oh so sweet.

I make plates, fix drinks, do the shoppin and clean the dishes in the sink

I wash your socks and draws and do some amazing things with these talented jaws

I open doors, explore new things and give you every type of pleasure

That new model just has nice ads but there is no hidden treasure.

So let my top down and gas me up, I'll take you all the way on one tank

I hold your food and when you spin this around I never spill your drank

I'm so classic, you better stick around and maintain what works

Or go ahead and get that new model and miss out on all these classic perks

"What the FUCK!" Wednesday

enjoy (I didn't do spell check!)

 

Started off good, woke up early, on my own. 

Got me and the kids dressed and ready to go. 

Called the babysitter and waited downstairs…

And waited downstairs. She's late, what the fuck?!
 

Now I'm walkin my son and his friend to school, 

She came around the corner and pulled up on the side of us, 

Tomorrow I'll be EARLY...what the fuck?!
 

Got my son settled in and settled down, 

He's in the same class with his friend the class clown.

On the train then on the bus, my boyfriend calls and says the cable is cut off, what the fuck?!

 

So we fuss a little and we work that out. Didnt go that bad didnt take the route

I tried to be civil as possible to this bitch when she called my phone, but these rude ass mutha fuckas keep eggin me on…what the fuck?!
 
So let me cut this short and hang up on her before I have to get loud cuss and get my black ass kicked off this fuckin bus

Moving on to work, they hit me with shit as soon as walk in the door, what the fuck?! Can I put my bag down?
 
Damn, now they tell me I forgot to turn my time sheet in, almost didn't get a pay check…WHAT THE FUCK?!

Don't play wit my emotions, rent is due this week. I got too many mouths to feed and my family LOVES to eat!!!

Well WHAT THE FUCK Wednesday is in full effect…The Devil is a LIAR, Satan get off my neck! You won't steal my joy, I worked too hard at it for way too long…pushin on and pushin past…Fuck you What the fuck Wednesday, fuck you right in the ass!